Everything has changed

all i knew this morning when i woke

is i know something now, know something now i didn't before

and all i've seen since eighteen hours ago

is green eyes and freckles and your smile

in the back of my mind making me feel like

i just wanna know you better know you better know you better now

i just wanna know you better know you better know you better now

i just wanna know you better know you better know you better now

i just wanna know you know you know you

cause all i know is we said "hello"

and your eyes look like coming home 

all i know is a simple name

everything has changed

all i know is you held the door

you'll be mine and i'll be yours

all i know since yesterday is everything has changed

and all my walls stood tall painted blue

and i'll take them down, take them down and open up the door for you

and all i feel in my stomach is butterflies

the beautiful kind, making up for lost time,

taking flight, making me feel like

i just wanna know you better know you better know you better now

i just wanna know you better know you better know you better now

i just wanna know you better know you better know you better now

i just wanna know you know you know you

cause all i know is we said "hello"

and your eyes look like coming home

all i know is a simple name 

everything has changed

all i know is you held the door

you'll be mine and i'll be yours

all i know since yesterday is everything has changed

come back and tell me why

i'm feeling like i've missed you all this time

and meet me there tonight

and let me know that its not all in my mind

i just wanna know you better know you better know you better now

i just wanna know you know you know you

cause all i know is we said "hello"

and your eyes look like coming home

all i know is a simple name

everything has changed

all i know is you held the door

you'll be mine and i'll be yours

all i know since yesterday is everything has changed

all i know is we said "hello"

so dust off your highest hopes

all i know is pouring rain and everything has changed

all i know is the new found grace

all my days i know your face

all i know since yesterday is everything has changed

♥♥♥♥♥

3 months left

hari ini, gue nggak berenti mikirin satu hal yang udah langganan gue pikirin setiap harinya. hidup gue setelah SMA dan masa depan gue. kuliah udah dapet, sesuai sama keinginan. masalah gue selanjutnya adalah ujian nasional{atau nama bajingannya; UN}. takut? tentu aja. siapa yang nggak takut. soal SMA ga semudah soal pas gue SMP. gue ngerjain suplemen UN 2 halaman aja kadang mabok, dan terakhir kali gue ngerjain soal pra UN disekolah dalam waktu dua jam itu gue cuma bisa ngisi 14+ itu juga 2 nomor ada yang nyontek. gue sampe ngebayangin, bakal seserem apa sih UN itu?

Graduation Day

hari yang sebenernya gue tunggu-tunggu, dengan harapan nggak harus ngelewatin UN hahaha oke emang mustahil. tapi entah kenapa hal favorit gue selama hidup adalah wisuda. pas wisuda SMP gue terharu sendiri, padahal lagu yang dibawain pas wisuda lagu wavin' flag. ditambah lagi itu nyanyinya malah jadi ngebanyol sendiri, gue sendiri juga nggak ngerti kenapa bisa terharu. masa dimana lo bakal inget "oh ini hari terakhir gue jadi anak SMA tar lagi gue kuliah" disitu bagian sedihnya, dan bagian serunya itu..... sebenernya nggak ada, tapi pasti ada aja kejadian tolol 'terakhir' yang bakal kita alamin pas wisuda itu. ninggalin temen-temen lo yang udah berjuang sama kita selama 3 tahun itu, ngelewatin sedih, seneng, gila, ngeselin.... bener-bener sedih dan nyakitin.

Friends

ini bagian yang paling nyesek, paling sedih, paling..... pokoknya yang paling paling deh. gue kalo abis becanda ama anak-anak dikelas gue pasti gue bilang dalem hati, "ih nemu ga ya bocah-bocah begini dikampus nanti?" emang dasar anak SMA jaman sekarang, masa kecilnya kadang suka gak bahagia, jadi kalo udah main gatau diri, lupa umur wakakak pas kuliah gue bisa gak ya begitu? 

temen-temen gue, yang suka gue kangenin kalo libur, yang kadang suka gue maki-maki kalo mereka ngeselin, yang pernah diem-diem gue sukain, yang pernah gue ajak gila bareng, itu semua ga akan 100% muncul dikehidupan baru gue nanti. kalo ga bakalan lebih dari itu atau kurang dari itu. temen-temen gue yang udah temenan sama gue dari jaman kita bocah atau temen-temen gue yang baru ketemu 3 tahun lalu, ga jamin gue bisa ketemu mereka lagi nanti. temen-temen yang hobi dan langganan gue ledekin, kali aja temen gue dikuliahan gasuka diledekin. temen-temen gue yang bokepnya astaghfirullah bikin garuk-garuk kepala, gatau bakal ketemu yang kayak gitu lagi apa nggak pas nanti kuliah.

semuanya sisa 3 bulan lagi, bisa diitung pake tangan. 3 bulan terakhir jadi anak SMA dan bisa kayak anak-anak. terakhir kali nyontek berjamaah gara-gara belom ngerjain tugas. terakhir kali rebutan kalkulator pas UAS. duh gatau bakal sekangen apa ama mereka nanti.

is this the end of everthing? :[