confusing..

monday, what a perfect day.

first, today i accidentally stapled my finger in the middle of the exam :-) 

second, i accidentally met my ex crush but i really wanna punch him in his face because he left me when im 100% sure he's the one. which is kinda put me in a bad bad bad mood.

third, guess who just came into my condo?? him. the one im trying to forget. we watched some movies, and that moment happened again. we're kind of spooning while watching movie, we laugh, we look into each other's eyes, he hold my hands, he put his hands on my hips, he's playing with my hair and lips like the old days, im not gonna lie that butterfly still happens everytime he did that, and then he told me, "your heart's racing fast" shit. really i wont let that happen again, because right now im trying my best to erase him from my mind and my heart (its impossible to erase him from my life because yeah, you know, we see each other every fuckin single day). im trying to open my heart and let a perfect guy stole my attention, besides, im not in the mood for falling in love or having a relationship right now. 

by the way, my period is coming early. i think its time to take a good sleep, bye!

yang lalu..

assalamualaikum wr wb (lah tumben) 

gue mau cerita nih, gue baru aja pindah kamar kosan.. tadinya kamar gue itu dilantai 2 kamar 210, terus gue dipindahin kelantai 4. kamar gue ini udah gue tempatin dari bulan september pas kamar ini masih baru banget di cat dan masih bersih, sekarang liat tuh kamarnya ampe jamuran, berantakan kayak gudang. tapi pas gue ninggalin kamar itu, asli nangis. gue cuma bisa senyum sambil geleng-geleng kepala, soalnya kamar itu ninggalin banyak cerita. itu kamar kayaknya udah jadi saksi yang maha saksi deh, apa aja udah pernah dilakuin disitu. dan sekarang gue mulai lagi dari 0, kecil sih, kamarnya bentuk letter L, tapi gue sayang juga ama kamar ini. sepi, kalo dikamar ini bawaannya tenaaaaang banget. nah jadi lanjut ya, ceritanya gue pas mau pindahan nemu barang-barang lucu nih...

• buku karya "ensikLOVEdia"

• nametag ospeknya Widi

• proposal revisi makrab 2013

yang paling gokil sebenernya yg terakhir, orang bego kayak gue disuruh buat proposal nih ceritanya ampe berapa kali tuh direvisi ama senior semuanya disalahin. dibikin ampe bagus-bagus, keluarin duit banyak cuma buat bagusin proposal, bikin packagingnya tp ujung-ujungnya itu proposal dibakar.... dan gak naik ke wadek + dekan. sedih sih.

cuma yang paling alig, gue nemu ini 👇

http://soundcloud.com/kamil-nadhirshan-1/hivi-orang-ke-3-cover-galang

jadi itu rekaman soundcloud gue, fajar, kamil ama andre nyanyi lagunya HiVi! yang orang ketiga buat cari duit. bayangin men modal awal kita dari lagu itu, dalam sebulan angkatan gue dapet duit ampe 30 juta-an. tuh kan kangen. 

random

well, its been a very hard week (or month) for me. being apart from my usual social life, have to live my life completely alone, i fucked all my assignments, and a lot of struggles. first, i got sick of all of these college dramas, i mean, im dealing with a lot of two-faced bitch, i have to hear them talking shits, and i should swallow all their lies. 

friendship, well, there's nothing last forever right? and this college life just taught me. i know it is okay to having a lot of friends because its really cool, BUT what if one of your "best friend" start acting like an asshole and then they're leaving you with your eyebrows crumbling and your mouth open? i know it such a bitch right?

love, oh, "maybe im not a smart person but i know what love is" so what is love darling?

love, for me, its just a tiny piece of crap who can make your life a living hell when you swallow it. well talking about love, anyone can be tired of being alone. and im one of them, i've been wasting my entire months by being fabulously single and im bored. im a girl, i need some attentions, i need a little touch or some cute words from guy i admit it i love it when a guy flirting on me, you cant call me a bitch because trust me you like it too. and there's a guy who is successfully stealing my attention and got my eyes ready to aim. but.... i dont know, im afraid of being hurt. yes, it is obvious, if you dont wanna get hurt please stop falling in love. BUT HELLO stop being in love is like being forced to stop breathing, you cant just live without love, dude, if you call yourself a love hater and you are fucking proud living without love, well congrulation dude if you're living without love your parent should be throwing you to the dumpster :) and you could be dead right now :)